The Landing [invite Kitiana]

Kitiana was honestly surprised at her own strength. She felt the fist slam into Sensoa and even though he didn't budge a Shockwave was sent rippling across the immediate area, kicking up sand all around them. She felt it in her arm most importantly however, a slow rippling sensation that wasn't there before. Before her arm would've likely been damaged if not with broken bones, but now it acted as if nothing had happened at all. His hand reached up to grab hers, tugging it away before releasing it. Kitiana, still floating in the air, backed up about two feet as he spoke. He asked why she was here, but that part should've been obvious by the fact that she was here. He crossed his arms and turned to face her, something she was honestly surprised that he would bother doing. She expected him to stay turned away from her, hell she had expected him to not even acknowledge her existence if not outright attack.

But he had done none of those things which told her something about him had drastically changed, though whether that was for the better or not remained to be seen. Then he asked her why she wasn't training, that she was simply still too weak. Kitiana gritted her teeth, reaching back and grabbing the hilt of her blade before dragging it out and flipping it in a circle as she lowered it and her arm to her side. "I'm here because Saizomaru is not. You left, Sensoa, in a fit of rage. But I'm not here to try and reprimand you for it, or to try and set you straight. I'm here to ask you why. What I said wasn't right I'll admit that, But it was how I felt. I didn't, and still don't, understand why you did what you did. You had told me you wanted to carve out a place for your family here on earth, I wanted, and still do, help you do that. I said what I said because I wanted you to see that."

She raised her blade to point at him as she stared him down, ready and waiting for the demon to attack her. "You felt it didn't you? Just then when I attacked. I've grown stronger. But it wasn't just because of Saizomaru, It was from your help as well. I couldn't have gotten to the state I am now without your help. You taught me how to better control my power and even though it's still a struggle to keep it under control, I can actually fight while using it and not have too hold back because I'm distracted by it. I want to help you Sensoa, I want you to help me too! There's still so much about demons that I don't know or understand, Hell I barely have a grasp on what the hell this power I have is let alone a grasp on understanding how to use it to it's fullest! I've survived attacks from you when I was far weaker than I am now, And even though your transformations are still likely far beyond my capabilities of handling I can feel my strength and thanks to this scouter I know that it's comparable to yours in your base form. That is why I'm here, I want us to help each other."

She was trying to stay calm and not let her tone seem aggressive, and even if her stance was aggressive she didn't act on it. She hoped that her words would reach him in a way that he had reached her. When they first met it was because his strength called to her, forced her demonic nature free and made her come to him. This time however she had come of her own volition. She still needed more training yes, but not all of it could be done with Saizomaru. He wasn't a demon and Sensoa was, Sai could only teach her so much.

Kitiana's eyes stayed trained on Sensoa, She wanted desperately to understand what he was going through. She felt bad for what she had said before and if she could she'd probably take a lot of it back... Not all of it, but a lot of it. But thankfully she didn't need to wait long for him to begin speaking, and her expression quickly softened. He explained something that she felt a kinship with, he didn't want to kill her. He had strength that he couldn't control, he was... happy? Happy that she'd come to him and asked him to train her. Kitiana stuck her sword in the ground as she floated down, her left arm gripping the hilt of the blade tightly. She knew exactly how he felt, power that he couldn't control... That could hurt or kill those you didn't want too. She remembered all to well the feeling of being overwhelmed and helpless, trapped inside your own mind unable to stop anything your body did.

The pain her left arm was in when Date had nearly disintegrated it in their clash, She still had many of the scars from that event. But he continued to explain how everything seemed backwards from how he was raised. That this world wanted for peace not war. That a dojo where he came from was where the strong existed, nothing less. The weak were frowned upon and stepped on like they were nothing. He wasn't wrong however, She hadn't asked him why he did what he did... She hadn't even thought to ask. Then he began to pace, explaining that his world was filled with naught but war and death. It was a reality that Kitiana was terrified of, something she prayed never came to light here on earth. He understood that earth wanted for peace and fought to have it, but that he just couldn't understand it... That maybe he just wasn't ever meant to understand it.

Kitiana's eyes closed as she listened, She could understand how he felt. Before that accident... All she had ever known was living with her Mother and that Arcade. The only two things that mattered to her were right there, She didn't need to worry about anything else. She came from a life that was the opposite of Sensoa, complete peace. Tears welled in her eyes as she fought them back. He explained that everything he'd learned in almost two hundred years was wrong compared to where he came from. Kitiana's free hand clenched into a tight fist as her other hand gripped the hilt even tighter, tears starting to fall from her face. Ever since that car crash her life had been irreparably changed. Before it she was simply a normal girl, living out a normal sixteen year old life with her mother. She hadn't a care in the world. But she had chosen to run away after that, to try and find out who she really was.

Kitiana didn't understand a lot of things back then, and still didn't really understand anything now comparatively speaking. He was blamed for everything, and that everything was his fault. Blamed for defending himself, even when he tried to change he was blamed for things. Nobody seemed to care about him, or want to hear his side of the story. She'd tried so hard to learn about herself that... She forgot to think about others. She was so wrapped up in learning what was going on with her that she hadn't realized she had made him happy to ask him to train her. He had tried everything to make this world work for him, hell he had a job and friends! He was being blamed for things he didn't realize he was doing, and she helped in that.

Kitiana's head hung low as he spoke, tears rolling down her face as she struggled so desperately to hold back the tears that demanded to flow freely. He left because he didn't want to kill her, he didn't want to be the bad guy. He was trying so hard to be kind and find his place and she'd ignored it entirely.

"Sensoa… I'm... I'm sorry." She choked those words out slowly, her voice but a soft whisper. "I... I didn't even realize it. I was so caught up in getting stronger... That I ignored it when it was right in front of me. When I said I was sorry for trusting you... It was because I didn't realize anything. I did what everyone else did, I assumed you were a bad guy. That you were there to hurt people and nothing more. I didn't try to understand, I didn't ask for an explanation, I just assumed, and that makes me the bad guy not you." She raised her right arm to try and wipe away the tears but they just kept flowing. She didn't bother trying to look up at him, she didn't feel she deserved it... Not yet anyway.

"So... I'm sorry. But I understand how you feel. My powers... I can't control them, but you already knew that." She grabbed her left sleeve with her right arm and rolled it up slowly to reveal the strange markings that looked like tattoos right now. "These markings... They burn every time I try to use my power. Every time I lose control my wounds on this arm reopen, The last time I lost control in a city a man named Date had to almost disintegrate my arm to stop me. He shattered it in over 20 places, it took me almost a full week to be able to use this arm and even longer to have full use of it back. Most of the scars on my arm are from that incident. Every time I lose control, when I wake up again this arm is in so much pain sometimes I wish Date had destroyed it completely."

Her left arm finally released the hilt as her head finally lifted to look at Sensoa. "You've lived both far longer than me and a far different life. I was raised in complete peace, a normal earthling girl that got to play games all day. It wasn't until I was hit head on by a car that my life changed. I totaled the car but suffered nary a scratch. Then I attacked a demon named Maple, It's the only time I can clearly recall an event from which I lost control. I nearly killed dozens of innocent people because of it. But Maple? He seemed to understand what was happening perfectly, He knew exactly what was going on with me. I so desperately wanted to find him again but I just couldn't. I've been searching for him for over a year now, Ran away from home without even saying goodbye to my Mom. I didn't even leave a note. My Mom is the most important person to me in the whole world and I didn't even say goodbye to her. After I ran away a few months later I met Saizomaru. He saw something in me, and agreed to train me. A few months later I ran into Date for the second time and that's when I lost control... That's when he nearly obliterated my arm. Then a few weeks later I met you, the only other Demon I've ever met. You know the rest."

Kitiana stopped for a moment, choking back more tears as she looked skywards. "I... I don't even know who I am anymore. I know nothing of my father, Nothing of my grandparents or anyone before them. Who even am I really? I've... I've not felt like I belonged anywhere for almost two years now. I don't know where I belong if I belong anywhere. So when you told me you wanted to try and build a life for yourself here I wanted so desperately to help you do just that. I..." She stopped, looking down and away from Sensoa as her body trembled in place. He expected her to look down on him for showing weakness, but in truth it was him showing his weakness that gave her the courage to finally say something about how she felt. Sensoa was the first and only person to ever hear this from her... Not even Saizomaru knew how she felt.

"Sensoa… Please... Don't give up on earth. I know nothing makes sense to you, I know that we've treated you poorly... But please don't give up. Because if you can't find where you belong, then I have no hope of ever finding somewhere I belong."

Truth be told... It felt kinda good to be able to release everything. She'd been holding everything back for so long she'd started to forget what it felt like to be normal. She'd ran from her feelings for a long time, refusing to let them ever show themselves for fear of what it might do to her. She wasn't wrong. She knew she felt like she didn't belong, but deep down she'd just hoped she was wrong... That she'd find somewhere on Earth that she belonged. Alas after two years of searching she never did.

Sensoa told her that she shouldn't look to him as an example, But if she couldn't look to him then who could she? Sai was usually off doing his own thing despite that she looked to him as her mentor. While she was close to him, Sensoa had broken her walls. He explained that it wasn't her blood that determined who she was, that only she could decide that. But that didn't help her. She couldn't figure out who she was and that was her problem, She knew next to nothing about herself so how could she possibly decide who she was? He said he found his place on Vegeta, perhaps she could as well. If she worked hard enough maybe she could find her place there, Or maybe Namek or something.

Kitiana was just worried that she'd never find somewhere she belonged. Namek was a peaceful enough planet like Earth, but that was the problem... It was like Earth. Vegeta belonged to the Saiyans but she was only part Saiyan... Would they even accept her? Sure they accecpted Sensoa but he wasn't a damned half breed like she was. What if going to Vegeta was a death wish? What if they just killed her immediately? Would they even accept a half breed among them? Would they allow her to exist?

The thought of going to Vegeta terrified her almost as much as going to Namek, But she didn't belong here on earth. Perhaps if she didn't belong here then maybe if she went elsewhere she could find where she belonged like Sensoa had and well... Maybe Vegeta would allow her to live there, maybe she would find her place there. Kitiana sniffled as she wiped away her tears yet again. Sensoa's hand felt... strangely comforting. "Do... Do you think..." She paused, trying to choke out her words but also keep the tears from coming back. "Do you think that... If I went to Vegeta… They'd accept me? If I really am only part Saiyan and part Demon... Do you think they'd accept a stupid half breed?"

Perhaps she was being too hard on herself... But the more she thought about what she possibly was the more she hated herself for it. If she was entirely one thing or the other then maybe things would be different but... She wasn't. She was just a stupid half breed. Kitiana's throat hurt from trying to choke back her tears, it burned almost like it was on fire. Her body wasn't trembling as much but it was still noticeable, which only caused her to shrink down. What would Sai say if he saw her like this? God what would her Mother say? Maybe she should return home... talk to her Mother before she left for Vegeta. But what if her Mother didn't want her back? Or... What if her Mother had died while she was gone? Would it be better to just leave and hope she was alive? Maybe.

As Sensoa kneeled before her she finished wiping away the last few straggling tears, finally starting to calm down once more. Her body finally stopped trembling, her eyes looking upon Sensoa's form as he spoke. He told her they'd be honored to have her, Knuckleheads were expected in any faction really. He mentioned someone named Kayen who could also be hard to get along with. Just who was that she wondered. If they were important enough to mention by name they had to be fairly high ranking or someone Sensoa liked a lot. To see Sensoa smiling made her happy, sniffling just a bit more she nodded at his words. He promised her that even if nobody else did, His ship would always welcome her. It comforted her to know that no matter what she would have a place where she was accepted, Though she still wondered if she would feel like she belonged there in the long run.

That was her biggest concern right now, finding somewhere she felt like she belonged. Kitiana smiled "Yeah alright, I think I'll get a ship and fly to Vegeta, see how I like it there and what they think of me. But before I go, Sensoa how about one last spar? Last time I wasn't anywhere close to even your base form and I should think this would be a fun way to test just how strong I've gotten since last time." Her hand reached over to grab her sword once more, pulling it out of the sand before spinning it a few times and bringing it to rest at her side. "Plus it'll give me a good measure of just how far I still have left to go to catch up to you."