A Burden lifted is a Boon gained[Invite Kayen]

Sensoa could sense when Kayen arrived, his eyes watching the horizon as his hair fell down between his eyes. His hair looking more shaggy than before as the approaching time came, and as he stared at Kayen through the window... He got a strange feeling of fear, but not the kind for his life but like he feared the disappointment in Kayen. He said nothing as her message came through, loud to his ears as his head lowered to look at the back of his hand. The scouter was alive, having formed to relay the message and told him her power level. He could feel it but he supposed a number was easier to understand. Slowly the demon rotated on his heels before walking over to the wall and pressing the button to open the door.

He had planned to meet her in private, but now he knew that would be disrespectful to her. Instead, the demon held the scouter up to chest height.

"I'll meet you in the Hanger..."

Sensoa's words were short, to the point and soon after the signal was cut. The demon making his way down the hall, Barban soon joining him as he had been informed who had arrived. As they neared the elevator, Sensoa would stop short before looking over his shoulder at Barban. From there the demon placed a hand on his father's shoulder which made the butler start in surprise. A brief pause between them before Barban went to open his mouth in response but in the end his words died in his throat. Unable to go against the resolve that Sensoa had set before himself. He had to face the music, he had done things that disobeyed someone who had given them a chance. He had been a fool and was not above Consequences.

With that, the demon went into the elevator alone, leaving Barban with a lowered head and closed eyes. As the doors closed, Sensoa gave his father one last smile as he road it down. It felt like an eternity as the lights flashed with each passing floor, the demon's green eyes staring at the door in thought. He didn't know what he would stay, of how he would act to her and why he was so nervous. It didn't take long before he was walking through the doors once more as they opened, revealing a mostly empty hanger save for a few necessary souls. The doors already open to receive Kayen and Sensoa went to the middle of the large room as he awaited her eventually arrival.

PL: 160,000

Sensoa watched as kayen came into the hanger, saying nothing as he kept his eyes on her. Her voice made him feel uncomfortable as he let out a long drawn out sigh, rubbing the back of his neck as he thought about what to say. To begin from the start would probably be for the best, but if she wasn't willing to sit through the whole thing he worried she would be more upset than she was. Well... She said she was curious what was going through his head when he had done what he did and as such... she deserved an answer.

"So... I guess I'd better start from the beginning.. as just telling you what I was thinking and why I acted like a fool wouldn't make sense otherwise..."

Sensoa then looked Kayen in the eyes, his face conveying the sadness in his heart and the disappointment in himself. His thoughts swirled about in a mass of planning on how he would plan this whole thing out. But in the end he decided his approach.

"In the beginning... I came to this universe with the belief that I was a demon of war... That I was made for the sole purpose to war endless war and I was good at it. I was enslaved by mortal kind and suffered humiliations that would bring many to their knees. I allowed my anger to be fueled by this pain and it blinded me. It blinded me to the truths this universe was trying to show me."

Sensoa then looked to the ground as he felt himself feeling embarrassed by what was to come next.

"When I came to you, I was pushed into a corner, desperate and afraid for my family. That was genuinely something new to me. I worried for their safety and meant I would serve you faithfully. But as time passed, and I found that all familiar anger within me boiling over... I wanted to lash out at what angered me like I always did. But there was no foe to fight, only morality and common ground for another. I saw humanity as weak, frail and undeserving of the protection it got. But what I saw truly... was a world that didn't live with domination as its sole reason for existing."

Sensoa looked at Kayen then, giving a half shrug and half sigh as he continued.

"As time passed... my anger consumed me and I allowed it to ultimately control me. I lost my mind to it, believing that if I forced humanity to bend the knee... I could prove them wrong, that war was the only real way to live... and that everything I had been living wasn't a lie. Yet I found the answer to be to ugly to believe."

Sensoa placed a hand to his face then, feeling shame wash over him.

"Kayen... I love to fight, and that is not a lie... But I wanted to be more than a weapon... a tool to be pointed at my foes by those who held my leash... On one hand... I wanted to be a demon of war, but without chains to bind me. I wanted freedom, in the truest of words. I wanted to be without limits, to do as I pleased without feeling regret. But all I found was self delusions and false grandeur. I thought if I went above prince, I could be a king... Yet I proved I was nothing more than a dog. A pitiful mutt who couldn't even kill a single innocent willingly. I've grown weak and yet... I do not loath it as I once did."

Sensoa gritted his teeth as he made a fist.

"I thought that if I killed Carro I could be free! I could prove that humanity was weak and that I was more powerful than anyone else in this universe! But when the chance was in my hands... LITERALLY IN MY HANDS! I... I couldn't do it. I could have won that battle... I could have killed Carro, and then washed over the others like a tidal wave of destruction... If I had the strength... the mental strength I would have been a king unlike any other before me....."

Sensoa then stopped as he thought about his words, his hand falling from his now human face to reveal troubled eyes.

"No... I suppose I would have just been an idiot with a body count. I betrayed your trust, hurt innocent people for nothing, wronged many people and just... all I have left is my family. I am not ungrateful to them, but I feel as though I was and still am a fool.... Heh, I am not even a prince. I found out I was just another demon, told lies and believing I was my demon lord father's child... But I do not even have a sire, nor a mother. I am a disfigured abomination born from the bones of a demon lord. Torn in two by magicks and not even whole. My brother is her flesh, and I, her bones. Barban's lover past, turns out. Barban was tortured for years looking at me only to remember his own family and friends having died to make me and my kin."

Tears welling up in his eyes then, fist clenched. He had believed that would be a good thing to not be a prince of his father but even that was a knife wound of its own.

"So not only was all I knew a lie, but I am just a rotting corpse walking! No more deserving of the title warrior as pathetic worm. I failed to step up, I failed to see the lies for what they were, I failed to break the chains that bind me, and I failed to keep the trust I had brought to me. I betrayed the SK, I betrayed my queen! You who had treated me as a respectable warrior and gave my family shelter when they needed it! But... Know this, I acted solely upon my own decisions. So I ask you do not harm those aboard this ship, as they didn't have anything to do with it!"

Sensoa then knelt down before kayen, head lowered but the tone he had used told him the fear he had of her. Not of his death, not of his possible torture. He was afraid of two things in this moment, to her the disappointment in her voice at his own revelation and the possible death of his family for his actions. He didn't know how Kayen would react, he probably shouldn't have even spilled out his soul to his queen. She was above his station, above caring about his problems and had more important things to worry about than his pitiful existence. Her sheer presence told him that he had disturbed her, and he felt ashamed of it. For he adored her, a battle queen who had fought her way to the top through sheer will and strength. He knew she was a pirate before being a queen, heritage or no. She had earned her place, and he had believed he could too.

"Sorry... I didn't mean to bring this all before you. But I believed you needed to know the whole story. You have more important things to do than offer up your time for me. Even a spar with you was asking to much... and now this. I am deeply sorry my queen."

Sensoa hadn't realized his adoration for Kayen until he had seen her. Until he had seen her come all this way and wasted her time on him. Quite possibly the greatest sin to him about having to face her. Even now, as he knelt down in front of her like a loyal dog, he felt the opposite of what he did for the king. He did so of his own free will and he had believed in becoming king, he could better the SK by giving them a worthy opponent. Never, even in his madness, had he been ignorant of that fact. He loved planet Vegeta, and in a non-romantic manner Kayen. She had all that he wanted, and she was the goal he had strove for.... The bullet point at the end of a long road... but he had failed to reach it... proving how inadequate he was compared to her. How... weak he was compared to his queen.

PL: 160,000

Adoration, devotion and respect, this were the things needed for one to be a beloved leader. You had to have this in your followers in order to achieve the balance one needed to be a good leader. At least, that was what he had read in those books from the library. His belief that fear alone was all that you needed was one sided thinking, and while fear did help, those truly loyal to you would lay down their life for you... This were the things that Sensoa felt at this moment, looking up at Kayen as she spoke and in his heart he felt like a new blooming feeling had budded in his chest. Like a burning fire unlike anything he had felt before, a surging within his chest... A ferocious and raging inferno but unlike the rage he had felt... it was passion... 

The demon's eyes looked to kayen's as he remained kneeling for only a brief moment. Yet in those moments, it felt like an eternity to the demon as he stared up at his queen. She had bested him on Namek, bested him on vegeta and given him asylum in his hours of need. She had given him what he needed, and then... when his heart was wrecked with self doubt, loathing and despair... She was akin to a sun shining down upon a dying field. A bright and wondrous thing that in all his years he had never experienced. She was his guiding light in this moment.

"I..."

His words caught in his throat as he tried to speak, thinking on all the terrible things that had happened over the course of his stay here. Three things had stayed constant, three pillars of unshakable fact... Kayen had not forsaken him, Barban loved him and that he was free... Never once had he questioned Kayen's faith in him but when she spoke some part of him detected the disappointment in her voice. She had forgiven him... had told him to stand up with her in aiding the Kingdom... Yet some part of him saw the disappointment in her eyes... some part of his mind recoiled at that... but it didn't blame Kayen but himself. How could he possibly allow his love for his queen be tarnished with such a stupid action!




How could he forgive himself when his bright star stood before him with forgiveness and he had nothing to show for it?! Yet his hand reached for hers, taking it as the heat within him built. The passion he had for this woman, not in the way of a potential mate, but of someone who he could never aspire to be. Yet that drove him further within himself. The warrior spirit within Sensoa reawakening anew in a blazing fury as not only did his hair begin to change, but so to did his overall visage. The snow white hair soon lengthening to much longer lengths and turning into a blazing fire. His tail following suit as the body of Sensoa began to change. His ki rising up higher and higher as he looked on at his star.

How could she forgive him so easily? Carro he could understand, but Kayen was so much more than any of the others! He had wasted her time, caused her problems and been nothing but a burden yet she took a wreck like him in! Both Joys and sorrows filled his breast as he felt the surge continue. Soon his power was rocketing past anything he had dreamed of, an astonishing transformation was taking place as he stood there holding Kayen's hand in a handshake. White armor forming along the demon's body. His love for his queen, a new found passion blooming within the demon as he stared at Kayen with clear devotion. Just what could he possibly offer her in return for such a brilliant experience? Forgiveness from the one he had adored for so long and the sheer fact she had stood by him until now. 

"Kayen... I will never disappoint you again! From this day forward... I will do everything in my power to bring the Saiyan Kingdom glory!"

Sensoa's voice had not changed much despite his radical new appearance, heat filling the room but not the stifling kind like before. It was akin to a warm fire that would keep the chill from the cold at bay. A bright sun shining down upon your skin on a fair day, warm and caressing to the crew's skin as he stood there with tears in his eyes.

"My queen..."

Sensoa would then do a courtesy bow, still unaware of his new form. He was just in complete shock at Kayen's sudden appearance within his own mind. He had cared deeply for her before, border line loved, but now his adoration for the woman was apparent in his eyes. The demon loved Kayen as his queen, and no other master would ever do. The Dog had found his master, his one true leader and the only one he could tolerate to truly be the one holding his leash. Kraktus be damned, the world trade fleet be damned, this was where he belonged!

With that the demon would give a nervous chuckle. Unable to truly form the next set of words in his nervousness, but not out of his fear of losing the lives of others. She had reassured him she would do no such thing, and he believed her instantly.

"I- uh... I don't really know what else to stay. But you give the word on anything and I will follow without question. My master..."

Sensoa said the last part with adoration dripping from his voice, the love he felt radiating from his whole body to cascade the area in a warmth he felt for his beloved queen. He was unworthy of her time, attention, to even talk to him, and yet she had given him this chance. AH the joy in his breast spoke volumes. But all he could think of now was the simple words of...

"Thank you..."

Sensoa was in a swirl of emotions, of happiness, and the feeling one has when grateful beyond words. The demon stood silently watching Kayen speak, nodding at her words of loyalty and how he would need to question if things are wrong with her plan. The sheer fact she counted him as someone worth the effort of giving information too, even after his stunt left him floored. He was overcome with the sensation of joys, and pride. What else could one ask for during this situation, what more could be said when he felt so speechless.

The demon's aura finally died down, as he suddenly realized the look of those around him. His hands at the mention of his new form, his eyes going wide before he began to truly examine himself. He certainly did change appearances a lot, and he began to wonder if that was the cause of his heritage or if he was just unable to decide what to look like. Whatever the case was, the demon would release his new form in a swirl of flames, the transformation dying away to reveal his usually appearance. The demon smiling happily at the feelings welling up within him. He could almost faint from the sheer amount of information flowing into his brain. The fact he had been forgiven by his queen, a new form, and the relief that the others were to not suffer a fate at the hands of Kayen.

"I apologize Kayen. I had not realized I had transformed! Er... I... Well anyways!"

Sensoa then put a hand to the back of his neck as he thought about what Saizomaru had said, if the battle came down to it... who would the demon would side with.

"... I do have a question and a request. First is the request... If the time comes when the saiyan kingdom must fight earth... I cannot do it of my own free will..."

Sensoa closed his eyes then, looking down at the ground in shame once more. He was having one hell of a rocky day for sure.

"I have no ill will to the earth... I do not wish to cause problems for the earthlings anymore... But if the time comes when we must or if we must go against them... Then I ask that you order me to fight... It may sound... ridiculous... But of my own free will, I could never attack Carro, or some other warriors of earth... Not because I do not wish to test my might against them. But because they have aided me when madness held me."

Sensoa felt yet more shame at the mention of his madness, of how weak minded he had been... but it was necessary to understand that wound he had created.

"So in the times to come, I know you said it isn't something you plan on. Nor do I doubt your words. But if the time comes, I must ask you to Order me to attack, so that I have no choice. Else I know I will hesitate... I can sense it within myself and I would not allow that to happen when fighting at your side."

Sensoa knew that sounded utterly foolish, but he also knew he wouldn't be able to make the first move. He needed to have a push, or a reason to step forward over that line. Kayen would hopefully understand what he meant, as a soldier unwilling to hurt those who would be considered once allies. If the time come, Sensoa might not be able to react fast enough and he understood his weakness' more than ever now.

"As for the question... I... Never mind. It is not important. Perhaps another time."

Sensoa felt embarrassment all of a sudden, and he didn't understand why. Just what was happening to him? Why did he feel his pulse quicken, and why was his face warm. His heart felt like it was going to burst all of a sudden and not he just felt weird.

"Er..."

Sensoa crossed his arms then, trying to think of something to say but now he was just lost on words. What the hell was he doing? He was all confused all of a sudden, the question seemed to simple, just asking her if she would like something to eat for all her troubles for coming here. Yet he felt... strangely embarrassed as if he feared the idea would be unpleasant to her. Perhaps he was afraid of the rejection and that she was to busy? Whatever the case was, the demon felt an odd fluster in his chest, and now was unable to process the thoughts and emotions within him. Truly today would go down in his history as an enigma to him.